Day 4: And this is it.

Day 1 came and gone. It wasn't a bad day, but it wasn't the best today. It was just a day.

Then came Day 2. What seemed to be a perfect day. I ran errands first thing in the morning while A was in school. I was in and out in no time. Iwas able to unload while E was napping in the car, and even do a little cleaning in the house before she woke. Then she woke, and we did some play time before heading to pick up A from school. Ipicked up A from school. Things seems to have gone great for her, so I thought it was going to be a great day.

That was until I got a call from my Mom. You know the call you hope you never have to get. The one where you really hope that nothing ever happens, things are perfect at home because you are so far away and you feel completley helpless.

That's where  I was. My grandfather had passed away. The initial shock of it all was overwhelming. I had one to talk to you, and I was so worried about everyone at home that I didn't want to call them because I was being selfish. Of course, everyone was hurting. Every single one of us. Husband is away, and he's the only one I share all these things with.

Time went on. Every single person started to find out. It spread like wildfire. That's when Mr. Man's Dad called me.I knew exactly why he was calling, but I pretended as if I didn't. He asked how Iwas doing. I told him good. So he went on to ask which grandfather it was. I explained. He had met him a couple of times through family gatherings. He apologized, showed his sincerity, and then we discussed life as single mom and what they girls had been up to. He was my outlet.

Then more time went on. Husband saw the news on FB. Immediately went out to purchase a phone. He called. Asked how I was doing. What was my plan. I explain to him the details and how I'm feeling. No plans. We talked, we discussed. I was feeling much better.

It's so hard to be so far away. But I'm happy that I have been able to have him in such a big part of my life. I love him, I miss him... but I also know I will see  him again.

The amount of outpouring love and support has been overwhelming. I don't know how it is possible for a man to be so loved, honored, and admired. I love hearing the memories.. I love sharing my thoughts, my memories, my love for him. I couldn't be more proud to be a part of such a small community. I couldn't be more thankful for all the support, thoughts, and prayers.

I never dreamed this would be it. This is how it would happenn. I never thought 2014 would be it. I never thought he would never meet E. I never thought he would be gone so quickly, witthout notice.

But I'm at peace because Maw is doing good, family is together, he's feeling the best he has ever, and I will see him again.