A Little Bit of This and A Little Bit of That

So now that Wiley and I are over halfway done with this deployment, I look back and wonder where the time went. This, so far, has been an amazing journey for the both of us. As challenges arrive and the wonderful feeling of succeeding and pushing on, I have become a bigger, better, and even stronger woman than I was before. I am happy to say that this journey in life is making the biggest impact on our life as a whole. As we approach new chapters in life and leave old chapters behind, I never once would look back and regret any decision or action I have chosen.

My life as an Air Force Wife brings many "What If's" but I have to just rely on God and live life. Everything in this military world is worth living for, worth fighting for, and I would never look back. Many people ask me if I was crazy when I made the decision to marry at such a young age, to become an Air Force Wife, but the answer is, No I was and am not crazy. People wonder how I do it, what keeps me going, but the reality of it is that it is worth fighting for, it is worth doing. No matter the challenges it throws our way, we are there to endure it as a couple, as a family. The Air Force is my family, and without it no telling where I would be.

Actually, we think about that quite often. The "What If's".. What if I didn't get married? What if I stayed home? What if I chose another path to life? People ask me if I could go back and change anything would I, and the answer is no. I never once have thought twice about the life I have chosen or the person I have become. This life is exactly what has made me the person I am today. From being 17 in high school to turning 21, living in England... surviving two deployments (ok, 1 and a half!). Would I want my life any different? Heck no! This is the life God has chosen for me, and I believe I am pretty darn good at it. Life is a journey. It's all about living and learning.

And what have I learned today? That no matter how much someone else relies on you. No matter how much you have to sacrifice as a person to make them happy, you should do it. Why? Because you never know when your last moment with them will come... when it all just disappears and all you have left to think about is the regret that you have built upon yourself for being selfish and inconsiderate. Even when you weren't technically being "selfish" or "inconsiderate" but knew you could've made it work to help that person out, you will live forever knowing that you were that person to them. So from this day forward, when I can lend a hand, I will. When I can lend a shoulder, I will. Because I know I have the greatest strength of all time... the best sidekick 24/7. With him, I can pass that strength on to others, even if it does call for a little less sleep and a little more sacrificing.